Mending Old Wounds

How do you mend old wounds?  Great question right?  Well some people can't let go of old wounds and others forgive, forget and move on.  There are also those that forgive, but truly never forget.  Where am I you ask?  

I would like to say I am that type of person that forgives and forgets all the time, but that alone would be a lie.  I will say I can see the toll it takes on a person who does not forgive, forget and move on.  No matter the out come or the actions of others.  Where is all this coming from you ask?  Well some what long story short we had a family fall out.  That is putting it nicely for sure.  So I have not seen some of my extended family in three years. Wow three years and we even live in the same city.  Crazy right.

Why now do I write this well my Grandmother is dying of terminal cancer.  We just found out a little over a month ago.  A cancer that is non curable.  There is no meds, or cemo that can help.  Just some drugs that can help prolong it, but not cure it or even improve it.  So what is one to do with this kind of information.

Do you go and visit and take your kids?  Have you truly forgiven and moved past it?  Can you put the past behind you with all the hurt and disappointment.  Who are you going for?  What is expected out of this visit? How do you talk to someone who you haven't seen or spoken to in three years?

I will tell you where to start it is with prayer and a lot of it.  Praying for wisdom, peace, and knowledge on where God is wanting to use me, my kids to Glorfy His Name.  The bible clearly teaches on Love and Forgiveness this quote can to me from Luke.

Luke 6:27-31.

But I tell you who hear me: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you. If someone strikes you on one cheek, turn to him the other also. If someone takes your cloak, do not stop him from taking your tunic. Give to everyone who asks you, and if anyone takes what belongs to you, do not demand it back. Do to others as you would have them do to you.

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He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.  ~Psalm 147:3

So even if you have been mistreated you are to pray for them and to love them.  Those words can at times be easy said than done.  By no means am I a perfect person, but through the Grace and Peace that only comes from Jesus Christ I was able to not only pray for my grandmother but everyone else that is involved. This is just a testimony about what happened after I prayed.  I felt the Grace and Peace for her and the others that I was able to go and visit with her.  It was a pleasant one at that.  My Aunt was with me and my girls no one was ugly or hateful towards us and in fact they were kind and talkative.  It isn't always having the write words to say to someone during this time or knowing how to help sometimes it is just showing up and showing LOVE. Now I hope to be able to go back out with my girls and visit again before she passes and prayerfully sense the door has now been opened and the ice broken so to say I will be able to visit and pray with her.

So I will end this with a song that came to me as I was writing this.  Please listen and enjoy the song.



Our Girl is Growing

Well I can't believe it has already been 3 months since I last wrote about Annabelle.  It truly seems just like yesterday I was writing the first blog about how she is growing on her meds. 

So today was her 6 month check up. Now before I give the results.  Matt and I have noticed how much taller she looks just in the last 2 months.  It is so amazing that even though she does not produce the hormone to grow on her own.  God has provided a way and she is getting the treatment she needs.  Now remember this isn't just a short term fix.  Annabelle will have to take these shots until she reaches puberty. Crazy right.

Well she has come a long way since starting these shots.  She used to scream and cry and beg us not to do them.  As of today Praise the Lord she stands there and takes it.  She has found her sweet spot so to say.  She likes it in the tush.  LOL  Crazy girl that is where she has the most fat anyway. :)

As her 4th birthday is fast approaching us I still can't believe the personality she was blessed with.  She is in my eyes super brave to endure this everyday.

So again today was her 6 month follow and her stats are at the age of 3 years and 11 months and 19 days she comes in weighing 26 lbs.  Her height is 36 almost 37 inches.  She is now in the 5-10 percentile.  Oh my she is now on the growth chart she is no longer hanging below it.  She is wearing 3T clothes some 4T and is wearing a size 7 shoe.  I never thought her feet would grow.  WOO HOO Way to Go Annabelle

So her Dr. will see us again in another 3 months.  If I haven't said it lately you have NO IDEA how thankful I am the we are blessed to have the BEST endocrinoloist on the east coast here in Tallahassee.  Praise God!

This is a picture Matt caught of her when in Nicaragua she loves riding the bus and not wearing seatbelts.